Went to the doctors today - 1st visit

Just an update...

Went to the doctor's today - wonderful experience.

My original appt. was for an annual check-up, so when they changed the appt. to today's PRE-NATAL visit, whoever booked it didn't change the reason.

So, I go in and the nurse tells me to stand on the scale as she is looking down at the paper, checking boxes.

She says, 'So, I guess you're here because you have some gyn. problems'
I say, 'Oh yeah, I've got a big one'.

**she is still looking down**

Then she asks,'What exactly is the nature of your problem that would bring you in today?'

So I turned around and pointed to my belly (which is obviously pregnant) and said, 'Should I be concerned about this?'

She looked up and it took a moment to register - then she showed me her patient list and next to my name it just said 'GYN PROBLEM'.

My husband and I got a laugh out of that.

Then, the doctor sees me and notices that my tummy is round and tells me that it is all bloating and GAS.

My DH was laughing, accusing me of holding in gas.

I don't have gas - weak stomach muscles, yes, but gas?

We got a laugh out of that too.


Bottom line - ONE baby, Strong heartbeat - measures exactly 9 weeks (which is perfect).

The glass is half empty

Mentally, this week has been pretty challenging.

Bryan is out of town, in West Virginia, starting the beginning of football season at a college level. This is the pattern we will have from now on - as long as he is blessed with making connections and getting higher in the football rankings.

I spent much of the day stressed to the point of exhaustion. I do believe that each of my children tried their best to push me over the edge.

Today is Wade's birthday. He is two and I was sad for him because this is the last birthday he'll have as 'the baby' in the family.

Tomorrow is a small, family party for him - couldn't today with Bryan out of town.

I have done ZERO planning. I almost forgot to order the cake, but at least I did that.

Karen dropped off ALL of the maternity clothes that I had parted with two years ago - it was four garbage bags full.

Two years ago, thinking I was OVER being pregnant, I gave her the entire wardrobe for a friend of hers, saving only a small box of my favorites stuff, just in case.

Well, just in case is here and I don't know if I have the energy to go through all the clothes.

One of my friends from work, Heather, gave me a big bag of her maternity clothes and I still haven't taken them out of the bag.

Why did I accept ALL these clothes - I don't want to let the chance go by without remembering the clothes I wore during my other pregnancies. I was elated to be pregnant while wearing those clothes... I'm hoping for the same effect.

So now, I have 6 bags of clothes to got through and I just stare at them.

I want to put on my old jeans - not look like a house for the next 8 months. (plus).

I have to admit that a VERY small piece of me is understanding that this little miracle, growing inside me, is truly meant to be here.

I have to admit that a VERY small piece of me takes comfort knowing that after this pregancy is over - we are done and our family is complete.

But who, by today's standards, has 4 children? Not too many, I'll tell ya.

Karen and Bill are the exception. She comes from a family of 6 - she is lost without the crowd.

So what is my excuse? I don't know.

But I do know that today, at Burger King, I got my first look with raised eyebrows and the question - 'are they all yours?' - knowing full well that the question ACTUALLY meant - 'are you nuts to have one more?'.

It is my life - God wants this little one to come to us - I just hope that it comes with the strength to raise them all and not jump off a cliff.

Let's talk about names.

The subject of names has come up. I know, I know... we have months and months to think about it.

But Wade wasn't named until the very end of my last pregnancy - we just couldn't agree.

This time we are starting early.

I'm very picky about names...

For boys/girls - I don't really like trendy names. I have taken great strides to not name our children names that are super popular. Anything on the top ten lists (for the previous year) are out the window for me.

For girls - I'm not interested in any names that end in a long "e". Like Stacy, Tracy, Macy, Bailee, Wendy, Melanie. They are just not my taste.

For boys - I would prefer a name that doesn't have a strong 's' sound. With our last name, it would be just too many "s"'s.


For a boy, I brought up the name Janson. I love it. It just feels right.

I like the idea of calling him Jan for short, yet, it he wants he can go by Janson and it sounds nice.

I post (daily) to discussion boards and brought this subject up... there are many, many female names that men use. (Dana, Lee, Kim, Stacy to name a few).

Now, I just have to convince Bryan.

He has yet to veto it, but he usually reserves his own opinion until after we know the sex of the baby. It eliminates half of the discussion.

I got to see the baby... I cheated and went downstairs at work.

I just wanted to throw out a quick update.

I couldn't wait any longer and, yesterday at work, I snuck down to the Ultrasound dept. and begged the guy to do a look-see.

He did.

I told him he was going to tell me one of three things -

#1 - I was pregnant with twins.

#2 - I was pregnant with one, but further along than I thought.

#3 - I was pregnant with one and it is only 7 weeks (by my estimates) and my tummy is just fat.


He said it was #3.

I don't have a sono photo to show it off, but I got to see the little peanut with a flickering heartbeat.

Only one.

Thankfully.

So - it looks like this baby will be due May 2nd, which means a mid-April birth... two weeks early for a C-section.

Tummy's swollen - can't get to the doctors for weeks.

Yesterday was kind of crazy.

The elementary school's open house was last night and I had to attend alone - Bryan had a football game to referee.

So, knowing I had to go alone, I threw a pizza on the table and $20 to a teen-age babysitter and I was gone from 6:30 to 8:30p.

I came home to messy kitchen but clean kids - everyone eventually went to bed, just a little later than normal.

I think that this may be the future for me - only soon it will be with four kids!!!


It's funny - I've spent the last two years listening to everyone tell me how we'd be C-R-A-Z-Y to have one more, yet after announcing we are pregnant, the tone has changed to WHAT A BLESSING, YOU'LL BE FINE, QUIT FREAKING OUT.

I'll admit that I'm still freaked out, but I can no longer deny that something is growing inside me. My belly looks about 5 months pregnant.

Just worried that there is two in there... which would be bad.

At work, yesterday, I saw a portable US machine and was tempted to grab it and go into a closet and try to see for myself what's going on in there.

We need to think boy and think only one...

Fingers crossed.

Maybe, I'll grab that machine today.